Addy Update 2/8/08

So I get to the hospital yesterday and walk into Addy's room. Her primary nurse Trish that I love so much was not there. Instead she had assigned Kim to her case while she was off. I always forget that Fridays start her weekends. Anyway I just got straight to the point and asked if I could hold her before I talked myself out of it. I told her Trish told me I could. Kim said yes that I would have to be very careful so she doesn't get extabated. Then she let me know that Addy has extabated herself before!!! Of course that scared me half to death the thought of her being extabated while I held her and them all rushing in and taking her from me to be reintabated right in front of me! This is why they always have her swaddled.
So first she asks the Dr. first if it is ok that I hold her and asks me if I have held her before. I have held her but never while intabated!! So she comes back and tells me that I can hold her for like 20-30 min cause she'll have to stay close by and has another baby she is taking care of as well. I'd take any time I could get. So she calls the RT to come in and help her move her into my arms.

I put on my gown and gloves and look like a freak!! I sit in the chair with my arm propped on the blankets they put on the chair for me to hold her. I start getting anxious as I watch them get all of her wires together and detach her from the vent for a split second as they move her to my arm. They taped the tubes to the chair that I was sitting in.

So I'm holding her!! It was so odd to have someone so tiny in your arms that barely weighs anything and yet feels so heavy!! It was so nice to finally hold her again! Last time I held her was a month ago. She was 2 pounds 4 ounces then so big difference. I sat there with her and she started opening her eyes which she never does. They are dark blue right now which I know every baby's eyes are dark blue for awhile but I still can't help but hope that she gets her daddy's bright blue eyes instead of my brown ones!!

She desated for awhile which is normal since she doesn't like to be touched but as soon as they stoped messing with her and she was in my arms she shot up and started high sating like 95-97. Her parameters are 82-94 right now. She was on 25% oxygen and they ended up having to take her down to 22% while I was holding her which is amazing!! We breath 21% so 22 is so great!

She seemed to love being held. Spoiled already LOL I just started at her forever. She was passed out cold! Every so often she would start squirming and turn red which is when she would of course desat. She had so much gas haha. Once she was done with all that though she was hi sating again. So I look up at her monitor and i've been holding her for 30min already. Kim just asked if I was alright and then went back to her charting. I ended up holding her for the whole visiting period I was there which was like an hour and a half!! It was so great!!

She did so well with it and really seemed to enjoy it! I can't wait to hold her again and can't wait for dad to be able to hold her!!

Well here's some pictures!!